i had a realization this week. i have been spending all this time and energy waiting for life to return to normal....
i keep saying things like, "things are really
crazy right now...." and "well, once we are done with this mess..."and then it happened...the big bean was cleared. he can walk...he can sorta run...the ramp came down..the wheelchair went away...and i exhaled...i sighed and said..."we did it..." and i SWEAR..the second i uttered those words BAM the whole family got hit with the stomach bug....kinda funny. KINDA.
all i could do was shake my head....and i gotta tell you....all of the sudden....i got it....it all made sense....LIFE is crazy -and THAT, is normal. it's supposed to be. PERIOD. this is life. and yah know what? I'M IN.
i am done fretting. this is the real deal...it-is-supposed-to-be-like-this....
shit happens. and really in all seriousness....its so amzing how much of life goes by while we - yes, all of us, are SOOOOO busy planning our next move. it is ridiculous. time to live in the now and love all of it...im gonna.
so we are rollin with it....we have remembered to laugh through the chaos, and if something goes down, and you miss a beat...one that you already planned...well, SO BE IT.
what it is really all about, is all the stuff that goes down during all the moments in between...the 3am cuddles while the little bean is projectile vomiting red peppers....or the hubs rubbing my back while he is trying to sleep at the same time....its the love notes all over the house from the beans telling mama and daddy to feel better....its being able to laugh at yourself with the people you love.... its 3 beans jammin out to u2, its little artists that like to paint on mama's canvas - and mama realizing that nothing is better than sharing the real thing with those excited little hands...its climbing in bed together after the plague has finally passed and remembering how good it feels... its catching the big bean fascinated by the process of recording a moment in time~and falling in love with how that feels...its listening to the beans love each other...and tear each other apart just mere moments apart...its the smiles on their faces as spring begins to show herself....all of it....
and its know that the world keeps revolving no matter what was supposed to go down, and didn't.
so, we are all here, eyes wide open, and loving all of it....
because listen....
you only get one shot...
so take it all in peeps....it is SO good.
xox. *a
