mama's day goodness....

there are no words to describe how much i love this little clan of mine.  they fill me up and make me whole.

sending mad lovins your way.

xo, *a 

*p.s.  you should look past how filthy the tv is..we spend a lot more time doling out the lovins than cleaning in these here parts.....

embracing change

i am making the changes friends, and it feels good. things are still tough, and it is still going to be a process, but after a lot of self searching the last couple weeks, i am ready to do this.

i woke up this morning feeling fresh. i am exhausted, but it feels good. last night was hard. like really hard. but it made room for me to do some of the growing i need to do. i woke up in a new place. i thought first of the good things, and my mood made a really amazing shift. my children made a shift too. as their little beings pick up so quickly on what is going on around them....

so in the spirit of change....

my goods for today.

:: teagan jade waking me up with a smile and the annual a.m. question, "can i wear a summer dress today..." (which is the same question every day....but today...i didn't roll my eyes...today i remembered i love that question and the big brown eyes behind it waiting for an answer)

::spring rain, with the new bedroom windows open. so i can hear it and smell it and see it...

::benji coming in my room to say, "thank you for Max back." (his monkey that i took away last night because he wouldn't go to sleep, that i gently placed back in his bed while he was sleeping...)

::making a love list with myles to fend off the grouchies at 8 am....and realizing that maybe i needed one too.

::that my friends and my family are amazing, and love us so much.

::that my family is respecting my choice not to talk about everything right now, and just knowing and trusting that i will come around.

::my hubs. no words. he is amazing. just amazing.

::the way benji says "fip-fops" (flip-flops) and "sheeeeese its..." (cheese it's)

::taking ownership.

::water. lots of water....

::how sore my muscles feel from running, because it reminds me that change is work.

::coffee.

::warm sun on your face

::my tattoo artist loving my new idea....

::books that take you away and make you not want to put them down, ever. with characters and words that wisk you away, if even for an afternoon.

::thinking about the good things - and finding me in there somewhere....

sometimes we all need a list...

and to take stock....

of what's always there....

that we some times get so caught up in, and miss, as it rolls on by....

what's on your list...what's making you tick...

*hug*

xo, *a