sometimes i find myself straight up staring at the people in my life....the people who make up my world, and smiling....about how we know the ins and outs and sideways-ishness about each other....but then some days, i find those very same peeps staring at me with a curious look in their eyes...
life is amazing...life is beautiful...life is chaotic...life IS.
...i have started making little mental lists about everything...things that rock my world sometimes when i don't expect it...or things that make me smile...or frown...well, i guess just things...
here's whats cloggin the brain right now...
1. i listen to the radio OBSCENELY loud in the car when the beans aren't with me. OBSCENELY. honest. sometimes i forget to turn it down before the next car ride....its not pretty...
2. i like to buy wine. nope - i LOVE to buy wine. red specifically...i could spend HOURS in a package store reading all the labels, touching the bottles, trying to find the flavor of the month...yep - its like wine porn...no, really.
3. i have a phone problem. i am CONSTANTLY on my phone...it sucks. its a habit i NEED to break....but it is.just.so.hard.to.separate.from.it. - kinda makes me claustrophobic.
4. i am a sun worshiper. i know. i know. don't care...just gonna tell you. i straight up use oil. Yep. SO BAD. i am going to look like that nasty old lady in something about mary someday....and when i do, feel free to remind me that i am an ass.
5. i decided to fore-go my amazing garden this year, after many years of busting it out - i have lyme disease, and its kinda kicking my butt, which was followed by a complete and utter meltdown regarding how much i love seeing things grow, and having dirt under my nails and between my toes...needless to say...there will be a garden....
6. besides all the cuddles and kissin, i cherish more than anything listening to my beans converse when they think that we cannot hear them, and overhearing things like, "no benji, mama cannot fix your bike, she is an AR-TIST! , not a state-worker, " and
"teagan how many love notes have you written?"
"shhh, i dont want mama to hear you, but I just wrote one! MOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMM - how do you spell Dylan??"
7. my kids are like small adults. they know too much. this is completely an utterly MY fault...and i am certain this will bite me in the ass....probably soonish.
Last week the school psychologist told me that m told her, "lets not make things any bigger than they already are. " SUPER.
and benji frequently will respond to the question "what are you doing?" with "NOTHING THAT CONCERNS YOU." - even though it usually VERY MUCH concerns us....like emptying two FULL tubes of toothpaste into the JUST cleaned sink...in an alternating pattern...i know...so cute...right? righhhht.
8. i dream about moving to the islands and living on the beach....
9. crossing me is a BAD idea. i will bend over backwards for the people in my life....but if you cross me...you're OUT...my hubs used to call me the hippy mafia. i own it...i so do.
10. i walk a very fine line between eclectic lifestyle mama and hoarder...i collect pretty cool shit(not in a weird collectables way - in a - i just like to hang on to neat shit kinda way) , and am not the best housekeeper...it makes for an iffy combo. but i like to think that when my kids are grown they will just remember it as colorful.
anyhow, just a peek...
love y'alls...*a
